A BDL FAREWELL! ~for now (and a video)
Hey everybody.
I hope this finds you well. I am sending a masage to you all with love and exuberanace. I am off to sea, and i expect a genuinel difficult voyage gowwever it is going to be very funa nd informative and it will be good for mys ole.
I have invited my fair bonnie yinzer on my trip last minute. I think she might be the one. I love her very much. I am all ways scared of lvoe, because it has burned my tight little ass oh so bad so mnay times before. However, this time, I think i am going to let the fear collapse beneath my wings as i rise like a pheonix on the mount. FBY has agreed to come last minute on my trip. She is a good woman, strong, fun, young, alive. I love her. Did i say that already/ well... I'll say it again one hundred thousand million times before this trip is over. we have three guys plus us two. going to be a lot of poker and fishing and reading books. Yinzer brought the complete works of shakespeare. that'll be good to get threw.
To be frank and earnest for a moment, I want to share something very personal. I joined this little twiter thing as a joke, just a fun way to talk to steve because we didnt have each others cell numbers, and to talk into the void. And somehow 1600 people decided that theyw anted to here me talk. I am not a perfect person, im not even a particularly good person. I am sort of selfish and impatient and I have scarificed myself a thousand times over in pursuit of fleeting pennies – copper coins, close comforts, catostrophic concoctions of coke and liquor left me lost and broke and sicker – whatever it was i was chasing, it wasnt the carrot ahead of me but the stick behidn that kept the wheels turning. It wasnt the pursuit of love but the retreat from the pain of the past. Just keep goingm,, never look back,. well anyway, i joined this twiter thing, and I dare to say something I never thaught id say. I remeber yelling at my son never to talk to any body on the interent and when he told me he had internet friends, i told him he was being a looser and he should be out at partys and bars talking to girls his age. He eventually cralled out of his shell and hes a very succseful pharmacist today but he had the capabiklity to get into medical school and i cant even blame DEI this was the 90s they were letting whites in by the heap and my son looks white not like me and my daughter, who looks like half a moor do to are sicilian heratage. and his last name is shoo which is white. little fact about me. anyway... i cant belive im saying this but last night I found myself surrounded by... "friends".
There are people I can genuinely turn to and talk to and listen to. people who have been there for me, laughed with me, laughed at me when i dserved it. There is a whole little community hear, and i am so sos os grateful to not be alone. When you guys get older you will under stand. It is very lonely. You stop going to school you stop working. and you stop seeing people. Friends move away, kids move away, wives come and go, pass on you or pass you on. It is hard, genuinely, to not get a little lonely. I wake up every morning and I'm 22 years old and then I look in the mirror or I looka t my hands (this is why i moisterizue and sun screen so heavily witch i RECOMEND!) and Im reminded, oh your not 22 your triple that. And life will be over soon. Its hard.
But I am honored to have been taken in by such an extraordinary group of people. Its all silly fun and games but hey sometimes it isnt. Sometimes i wanna get sentamental and say... THANK YOU FOR THE LAUGHS! Well.. anyway, I had marty cut together this little video. Here you are, the farewell trivia and wrestelmania extravanegansza!:
Note from Matt (Marty):
Hey guys, just a quick note here: Jazz doesn't really pay me anything to do this, I'm just here for fun. I edited this video down from a complete mess of material. As you probably know, the ideal and correct way to view this stream was across three different platforms, with audio from X, video from Twitch, and then kahoot participation on another platform. This was absolutely ridiculous and I don't know why it was done this way.
On this video: I tried to stitch together a cohesive version of the stream, with the best audio and video possible, and I tried to capture all the typical Jazzisms what with the stream not working and with people getting confused, especially in the beginning. That's a feature not a bug. Also whoever was loudly drinking or eating directly into their microphone during the trivia game – I hate you. Lastly, I love how Jazz and Steve presumably get bored by the end, and do not make any attempt to announce the winner of the royal rumble. It cuts off sort of abruptly. I think they were on mute discussing dinner.
Jazz has asked me to periodically post on this website with updates about his journey. I have no way of contacting him while he is out at sea, but if he does get through to me, I will be sure to upload. I can see that he has about a dozen drafts unposted on this site, so maybe if he dies (kidding!) I'll just release these as a posthumous demo album. None of them are much finished. Anyway, enough from me, sorry for any issues with the trivia (I genuinely wish you could see what they gave me), and enjoy the video!
